Well, I haven't really updated this blog in eons... not because I had lost my gusto for this site (never!), but because of my busy school-life.

I'm not really the type of person who strives hard to be in the honor's roll, or to get good grades... seriously, modesty aside, they just come. But! For some reasons, I happen to be doing just exactly that. I often say that it's for the rewards I get, but I don't really think that's why. I think it's because of my growing fear of the future. In our current times where humanity doesn't seem to be going anywhere else except for the path of doom, how I can be so certain that I'll land in a good job position or even start the job that I've always wanted to? Or even get into a good school in College? Sigh.

College. I know that I'm a year too early to be thinking of this, but I also know that I also should also make up my mind before everything is too late. I have no idea whether I'm going to enroll myself in one of those overseas study program like what my mum wants me to do, so that I can travel all over the world and study more about the different cultures, or if I should study somewhere in the America or in Manila.

America... heh. If ever I choose medicine for a future course, I'll be studying there... and I will be, if my sister decides to take up business. I don't know why, and it may sound corney to a many of you, but that's a mentality or so in my family; we just hate, well, whatever the other likes... or something almost like that. If she chooses something else, I'm doomed to take that course. Not that I don't want it, but it scares me... Is it really that stable enough a future job? Sigh again.

I can't choose between U.P. Diliman, AdMU, DLSU, Enderun, or Thames... They all have pros and cons; they all seem to be good schools to me... really expensive, but really good. :[ I don't think it's necessary to spend so much money... but, oh well. That's how life is nowadays... If you want something of good quality, you have to pay the price. Sheesh.

Sigh again.

On the brighter side, mum just came back from Spain a few weeks ago, and she bought lots of awesome stuff for my sis, bro, and I... but she had to leave immediately for Bangkok,Thailand... I asked her to buy me some cool boots to complete my dream costume set, but she forgot about it and bought me a Wii, something I already told her that I didn't want anymore... but it's already there... and now I have my own Wii. Guess it'll be a while before I get my own PS3. :[

Oh yeah, I've been trying to revive my muse for anime and manga, but it's really dying. I'm starting to get picky with things, unlike before when I'd watch it if it's good, no matter what genre. :[ I feel so left behind whenever I go to club meetings at AMK or whenever I hear people talk about titles which I don't know... or maybe I do know, but have forgotten, or haven't watched. I don't even draw much anymore. Still, there's that years-old, imagination-block of mine. Sigh.

I should be working on some papers for the school SCT, but I'm quite bored and tired at the same time... the internet is boring, too... :[ Not much sites available to amuse me... DA's not included though...

Oh yeah, my frequent absences are starting to take effect on my grades and performance in school... Although my general average got higher, a many few of my subject grades lowered. Now, I have two line of eights. Dx

Darn Big C.